Water`drop

*Thursday, September 27, 2007*

perhaps..im not as strong as i think i am..or independent...or significant...or wise..or.....

sometimes i really wonder why i gt myself into this...worth the efforts?tho i shld stop trying to think whether its 'worth' is really that important...and i noe deep down its wad i want..but sometimes...juz sometimes...it gets back at me and snaps at me...real bad...

-vulnerable and weak..the inferior self

//by nightfall...im starting to feel much better already...after all..i guess that was just a...dissociative state of mine?haha!i'll learn to cope and handle and thanks to all who were concerned..im fine...really i am!gonna keep reminding myself that there's so much more for me..and nt let myself be so so affected!and i will hang on...its what i want..juz tot u shld noe...

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 16:27

*Wednesday, September 26, 2007*

went for ntuco prac ydae...miss playing with the orchestra!!and its great to feel more alive when im doing something that i really enjoy and hanging out with frens totally rock!trying to keep and maintain a healthy mental wellness here(according to the site haoyang sent...haa!)...altho ended up having mixed and jumbled up feelings ltr in the night..happy tt i went..but sad that there are things(and people) that i truly miss..oh wellss...
HAPPY BELATED Mid Autumn Fest to all tho!=D

Read an article in today's The New Paper abt this 3yr old girl who got molested by a neighbour..and the court decided that the suspect shall not be charged..and was juz given a stern warning....the reason being child witnesses are usually less credible because they have inferior memories or are susceptible to suggestion or coaching by an adult..and do not hv the mental capacity to enable her to testify in court...even tho docs hv said that there had been 'attempted digital penetration' of her private parts...haiz...gt quite agitated when i read this article...aft all..the implied meaning i get from this case is that a lil gal's testimony is not credible and thus the suspect can go scot-free!arghhh!haizz..i think tt a person shld nt be allowed to be judged like this juz because of age..and to be doubted!!who are they to judge?!haiz...i can imagine how traumatised this lil gal is now..and perhaps it might scar her for life u know...perhaps changing her life forever...her mental wellbeing...her character...everything!!!blehh...altho i reckon things wont be ez for her if things were brought up to court and she has to be questioned..how will she be able to handle those questionings!arghhh!!ohhh wellss...i guess im feeling so strong abt this case's bcos the books i keep reading these days are about lawyers fighting cases (esp. as defence attorneys)..and to them its no longer about truth..but its how you...kinda argue your way thru..most of the time to get ur clients acquitted..even tho sometimes u noe deep down they are in the wrong..haiz!realities of the world agains huhz?well..im not a lawyer..so i guess i dunit to undergo such emotional turmoil either...i doubt i'll feel gd abt myself...ever...(this is juz my own views!) praying hard that the lil gal's alright and she can forget about this matter (altho its freaking difficult) and lead a normal and happy life...and not end up like the gal in the book i read (Jodi Picoult's 'The Pact')...who, in a nutshell...had a similar trauma when young..and ended up going into depression and killed herself...yupp...read it..an..interesting book!

Reads: Jodi Picoult,Mary Higgins Clark,Sidney Shieldon (basically books tt i've bought/borrowed for freaking long..n im finally getting to them..realising the wonders of immersing myself in the world of fiction(or isit?)

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 20:25

*Saturday, September 22, 2007*

Been out at tuas this wk for those who dunch noe...well...its quite okiess..at least i gt work to do(n gt things to charge to!) and im learning things...be it learning how to be a better auditor..or to be a better person who is humble and frenly to anyone and everyone i see..using the wonders of smiling at ppl, appearing frenly and using the powerful words like 'thank you' at the right moments to get my work done as well!!wonderful tools!!!its alwaz better to make frens den enemies...i reckon tts the best survival tool in this society...esp as an auditor!!!
gt informed abt my nex job..its gona hv a SUPER DUPER tight deadline..so i'll hv to OT and work on sats to hopefully(actually its a must!hmm..) finish the work by the deadline!!excited but not so excited...its gona be work work work..but it might oso end up to be stress stress stress..which way wil it go?shal juz see how it goes when it comes...which is gona be rather soon..1st oct!!wish me luck!!if i MIA for the 2 wks...dun blame me okiess....i'll stil be here for u all my dear frens!!anything feel free to contact me to talk abt it etc okiesss!!=D loving all of u and will miss all of u alot tho..haha!damnn...
oh wells...a WARMMMM WELCOME to MY life - the phase which my life as an auditor truly begins?
-i love music and games and reading and exercising..they keep me sane and alive...im loving it!

P/S: working makes ppl fat...at least its evident that this problem exists in this field...so watch it yeaa! (this serves as a huge reminder for yours truly as well!)

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 00:22

*Saturday, September 15, 2007*

after knowing more abt the kinds of ppl there are out there..im actually quite thankful and glad and blesssed for what i have and whom i've met all this while...ive gt a great n wonderful family..who's very supportive of me and whom i noe will alwaz b there for me through my ups n downs...altho there are disputes and issues..im glad things are working out fine...furthermore..all my life..i reckon (and in fact am quite sure of) that ive really met quite a number of the most wonderful people there are in the world...who are frenly and nice and helpful...and in fact many are still my gd frens to keep...alwaz being there for me and having fun together!i dun really encounter horrible ppl..or selfish ppl..or hypocrites etc etc...n even if i did..they're juz a small handful which will not affect me!(aft all...they're too insignificant to me!ive gt many other frens who sooo deserve my utmost attention!)
with such a wonderful circle of frens and family..who am i to ask for more?im already blessed with such gd fortune..n im happy...am contented...and thank God for giving me all these chances to meet the wonderful people out there...and thank God for everything!!may God be with you all too..n i'll alwaz be praying for u all my dear frenss!be happy everyone!=D

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 00:32

*Wednesday, September 12, 2007*

super into oldies(elvis presley's songs' my current favorite!) and old hokkien songs now(even tho i stil dun understand hokkien..i bliff i'll noee...soon!!na si wa wu ji ba ban...)...especially since there was getai at my place the past 2 nights..haha..

guess im getting mood swings agains..mixed feelings weird mood..ohh wells...

Dear God
lemme be strong and brave..lemme be a survivor..lemme hang on ohh lord...lemme be happy as i hope for the same for all my family and frens...help me and us get thru all the challenges and ordeals we face...lemme find meaning in life...guide me oh lord..
Amen

suddenly tot of singing this song...sing with me!!

YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE
The other night dear,
as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
When I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.

Chorus:
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I miss you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me to love another,
You'll regret it all some day

CHORUS

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But now you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all my dreams:

CHORUS

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 00:32

*Sunday, September 09, 2007*

another good dae for run at Macritchie!the weather's becoming warmer siaa!!and tdy we're short of kelvin..cos he was on standby for his job..ohh wells...nonethless..we continued running!next week we muz psycho more ppl to join us man!!angeline!sining!wenyi!yuqin!jing!yuhui!nua!kaiyu!sheya!come join us run/walk/enjoy the nature!!!wahaha!!den we can continue more food hunt aft that!!hehehe!!*psychos* (oh yes...haoyi n yen...dun 4get to exercise hur hur!!tsk!)

aft that we went to eat Macs(tsk tsk..alwaz indulging aft our run!!!!faints!) cos there were coupons for that...n here we are with food!!jeff n bossy are such gluttons manz..tsk tsk tsk!!=PP

the fries and nuggets were the extras/free items..all of us had a burger each...n i had mcflurry!=p oops!!

nex up we wanted to go to the arcade to play bball..but the place was reserved for 12-21yrs old ppl only(unless u pay 50bucks to get in for unlimited play..)..some Nebo promotion shit..so sadd la!!so we ended up playing..jackpot!!think we spent abt 35bucks on this machine...we gt damn high playing it..its funnnn!!but super waste $$ siaa!!hahaa!!

look at bossy n jeff staring intently at it...attempting to maximise each try..haha!!

aft darnn long...we finally won that white softtoy!!=p im keeping it!wootz!i think i shall name it Mashmellow..its soooo..marshmellowy!!haha!!ohh..n that bag of sweets are oso what we won....expensive sweets man!!omg!haha!but nonetheless...loads of fun!!(tts jeff posing btw!)

aft that rushed home to get ready for photoshots..oops gt scolded for gg back so late..oops!!ohh wells...this din spoil the foto funn!!4gt to bring my cam to Serangoon Broadway..so all the following shots were taken using my phone...nice nonethelesss!!photos are funnn!!

Top Left(clockwise): me with my parents,my parents,me playing with my bros,and a slightly more formal shot with my bros!=D

ahh..and this is when my bros are trying to act shuai cos they've gt shirts and blazaars on..haha!!we're all rather zi lians huh?hahaz!!=Pp

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 17:22

*Saturday, September 08, 2007*

juz gt back frm eating and shopping with the s36 ppl at Marina Square!=D supposed to be a gathering b4 the guys fly off for their studies..but wells..in the only gt me,joce,ghee chuan,zhenqiang and chunyi who turned up...nonetheless...we had fun!!1st we had lunch at jack's place..eat eat eat...den we went to swensens for dessert..eating earthquake and choc fondue..which me n joce treated them to..and i found out from them that mint's a spermicide!!!no wonder guys dun like mint!!!haha!!and den we ended up shopping!!cos no shows (or rather i watched most of them le..oops..) and the guys needed to buy things!!zq wanted to get wallet,belt,bag n watch...cy wanted to get slippers!!so off we went..the guys were still saying guys and gals shop very different one...guys walk into a shop...if they come out within 5mins means nothing to buy...within 10 mins means consider le den decided to buy or not..chop chop done!haha...
zq managed to get his wallet frm wallet shop and bag frm ripcurl (rich lo..tsk tsk!),aft concluding that he has 'feel' for the items!where gt ppl buy things cos gt 'feel' de?!me n joce keep saying he shopping like a gal already..wahaha!!n cy saw nice slippers frm fourskin den he buy liao...so fast!!!!
this is the difference between guys and gals once agains..they decide on what they wanna get for the dae..and they get it!or at least part of it!for gals(or rather at least for me)...when i sae i nid to get something...i'll alwaz end up getting everything else except the item that i wan...or when i accompany ppl to shop..somehow or another its me who's buying and spending..or i'll juz think i 'need' this item and i'll end up buying them..wad the?!get my pt?im a spendthrift..shucks!
yiing is a huge spendthrift who needs to stop spendingg!!shucks...=(
anw...wishing all thats gg overseas to study all the best and take loads of care and enjoy all the holidays and tours u all are going for!bon voyage and study harD!=D

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 17:38

*Thursday, September 06, 2007*

yiing is gg for linkin park's concert on november 13,8pm at singapore indoor stadium!!!yiing is a happy gal!!*bounces and hopes ard!*
*chants 'linkin park linkin park linkin park linkin park!'*

-did something stupid and silly tho...hope my efforts are worth it and u'll get to watch it too..=P

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 22:51

Don McLean- Vincent( Starry Starry Night)

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.
Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.
For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.
Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 14:16

*Wednesday, September 05, 2007*

Just happened to look thru some old pics..pics that were taken in hall and in sch..n boy did i feel super duper nostalgic!cldnt help tearing when i look at them...thinking of the happy times i've had in hall with my frens..haiz...memories..oh so sweet..i miss hall lifee!!i miss my late night jogs,my late night suppers(Macs,chix wings,kuay chap,rosti etc!!),my late night gamings,my late night walks,my late night shows,my late nights alone in hall,my pillow fights and goo-goo-ga-ga talks,my late night nonsensicle talks,my late night studying and piaing(or at least attempts of piaing),the attempts to surprise ppl on their bdaes...i think the more i say the sadder i get..shall not say too much oso...
-mood: nostalgic n sadss
(noTe: pics are randomly chosen and not in any order!im too lazy to put them according to dates oso..hees!)

my nbs clique!=D(of cos gt ppl missing laa..duno where they ran off to!!bahh!!)

us with the Nellers tee!!=D (2005)

ntuco concert success!!=D(2006)

us at KTV session...2006?(can still remember yen,yuhui n hy singing the hokkien song!which my bro keeps playing these daes!!faints!)

hmm..we had a steamboat at hall 13's lounge!!yum!it was when nellers were stil at its early stages..haha!(2005)

ning's bdae(2004) during yr1!haha!!we had pizza n we tried to surprise her!i think tsin shwen and ade were trying to keep her stuck to her com by video calling her or something..quite hilarious!

oHH..this is considered my last supper in ntu2007..(at least last Macs supper i reckon)...nuggets n ice cream!(stil remember stupid haoyi make me call up macs agains to get him a sundae too..tsk tsk!)

After MAF performance in..2005 i think!we're trying to create the indian tree effect?hees!

this is sheya's bdae in 2005 i think...somehow managed to gather so many ppl cos kaiyu drove!!hahaz!!

rostii!!yen's the chef!!really enjoyed eating rostii!!and playing in the pantry!!=P (2005)

angeline's bdae in 2006!!we surprised her by camping out n hiding in the room!(and den we used the same mtd for ning's bdae a mth ltr..HAHA..sad we din take pics for that tho!)we had loads of snacks and cooked things like sausages too!!haa!

this pic is ancient!!!it was when we were in yr1 and we were all still innocent and young den!!we had steamboat for CNY in hall 13 lounge againss!!stupid yuhui keep disturbing and spoiling all the nice pics..tsk tsk!(2005)

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 22:40

have been on MC on mondae and tdy...cos of my fever and diarrhoea/gastric..ohh wells..and all i do is sleep sleep sleep...thx to all for the concernn..im better le!=D guess i really seemed quite sick ydae during training..keep dozing off!hahaha..ohh wellss..din manage to go for practice oso even tho i said i wanted to....haizz..ohh wellss...
we're organising a genting trip for our dept!wootz!!hope many ppl will be enthu and join us on this trip!!=D

-short post..backs to resting and shows watching..b4 someone niao3s me for watching..hee!

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 18:33

*Monday, September 03, 2007*

'Many things that happen in this world are beyond your control,but you can control the angle which you look at of this incident'

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 00:11

*Sunday, September 02, 2007*

funfilled wkend!!!i bought frank sinatra's cd on fridaee!!!!muahaha!!luvv my new cd!!=D

sat went to do aerobics n bellyblitz(aka belly dancing) with angeline under e amore women's day out event...it was fun!n tiring!great workout!!den we met up with yq n had lunch..no movie to watch..so it was slacking time at angeline's hse!!we ended up BAKING!!yess!!we are GOODD!!we made choco cakes!yummmm!!n angeline suggested throwing in bananas and we had banana choco cake!wahahaha!!fantastic!!

b4 e cakes were done!!

tada!creations!!!!yumm!=D

3 chiobus and the cakes!=D

qi came so freaking late...n we finally had time to play MJ!!haha!!n no one became bankrupt!wahaha!=D ended up cooking mee sua to eat too!!we're gd ehz!!!!=D thx angeline for hosting us!=D was so freaking tired when i gt back la..totally shagged out!!haaz!

sundae: morn woke up to meet e guys for our wkly jog at macritchie!jeff finally came!!that lazy ass!!wahaha!e whole wk keep saying wanna suan me abt my FTT..stupid shit..wahaha!!!this time we ran 4+km nia i think..we went for e normaler route..hees...calling everyone...JOIN USS!!!!!!come exercise!!!we are recruitingggg!!=D(and den u can join us for our weekly gd food hunt too!=P)

aft our run..we went to casuarina for prata!!YEAAAAAA!!!!!im a happy girl!!i LUVVV casuarinaa!!yummmy prata!!!i hope everyone enjoyed their food as much as i did!!weeee!!den we went AMK hub agains cos jeff said he saw optimus prime there b4..den bossy wanted to see..cldnt find e shop lehz..jeff muz be STM agains..wahaa!!anw..we ended up at the arcade...shooting basketballs!!this wk's run din tire us out much at all..so we've gt so much evergy!!omg it was totally addictive laa..trying to break our own records...and in e end we had arm workouts too!thx to bball!!HAHA!!we tried our luck at the UFO catcher toy thingy..cos they feel that it might b possible for us to push the toy over...failed!!=( ohh wellss!!

aft tt went to meet kiat to head down for our dance beat event under amore women's dae out too!!my sun2 you3 qiu fell sick and cldnt join us in the end..sadded x100 la!!haha..anw...we were a lil late..but it was okies..had loads of fun dancing!!=DD i enjoyed e mtv dance more than the hip hop one tho...considering joining such things to work out the body..anyone interested?

tdy's workout was less tiring..so ended up..shopping!bad movee!!bcos there goes abt..160bucks!!haizz!!oh wellss...long term investments...i hope!im an OG mbr now..HAHAHA!!n my honey 'bf' kiat helped me carry stuff!!she sae she machiam like my bf liaoooo...help me carry stuff, do this do that,eat same food,same cravings..awwwww...so sweettt!!HAHA!i luv my honey 'bf'!WAHAHA!!=PPP sun2 you3 dun jealous okiess!!we'll still call u out so that we can hv our threesome!!wahahaa!!oopss!!=P SN ppl...we nid to exercise together more often too!!get everyone's lazy asses moving!woottttzzzz!!badminton?dancing?kickboxing?jogging?Swimming?lets do it gals!=D

me n my honey 'bf'!!at ktv dunowhenzz!

yiing is declared BROKE for the next 3 weeks!!please please please stop me from spending at all if you're my frennn!!!!bahhh!!im brokee!!!!but i stil wanna CLUBB...dance dance dance..its time for that mthly/fornightly shakingg!!

concluded tt i only like gloria jean's voltage now...starbucks espresso frap's cant beat it...i wan my gloria jean coffee!!*bah*

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 21:41