Water`drop

*Sunday, December 30, 2007*

Akon: Sorry, blame it on me
As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for
I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect
I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl
[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me
Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs

Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the FEDS came and took me away
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you
And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 04:25

*Saturday, December 29, 2007*

lp showed me this...n i guess its true for many of us!

Emotional Layers - The Onion PrincipleBy Chris Joscelyne

Some people are like a raw egg. They have a hard outer exterior, but once their shell is cracked or broken by a stranger, a workmate, a friend, a family member, or by a romantic partner, they start to fall apart.

Some people are like a jelly. They are soft, squishy and easily devoured. They have no emotional barriers and they are easily manipulated and used by others.

Some people are like an onion. Onions thrive emotionally because they have emotional layers and they know who can be allowed access to each layer ? when, and under what circumstances.
Onions understand their layers and how much of their emotional selves they can reveal and share with others, without the risk of deep emotional hurt. This protects them, while allowing them to reveal and share their emotional layers in safety as they choose.

The Onion Principle

Layer 1 is the outer layer with smooth protective skin. Outside this layer is the world at large including the people we meet, do business with, work with, and with whom we have social contact.
Layer 2 is the first inner layer. This is for friends, pals and others we know and like.
Layer 3 is the next inner layer. This is for close family members, and close friends we know and trust.
Layer 4 is for romantic, trusting friendship (boyfriend/girlfriend)
Layer 5 is for embarking on a loving long-term relationship
Layer 6 is for the children if the onion is a parent
Layer 7 is for a total partnership of love and commitment
Layer 8 is the innermost layer (the place where your "inner child" lives). It is your most personal, private inner emotional space.

It is important to understand that an onion does not practice universal mistrust of others. That is unhealthy. An onion is simply a discerning person who knows that emotional layers are precious, and should only be revealed and shared when empathy, trust and understanding have reached a point where it抯 safe to go to the next layer with another person.
Opening up a deep emotional layer to another person prematurely, especially to a person who will not, or cannot respond in kind, is a sure step towards a failed relationship. A problem for some people is that they naively confuse romantic infatuation with real love. This makes them think they can safely share their emotional layer 5 or even their layer 7 when, in reality, they should be only at emotional layer 3 or 4. If they discover that the other person has abused a deep inner emotional layer they have revealed and shared with that other person, the result can be devastating.
The happiest people I have met are the onions who understand themselves and the people around them. They manage their layers well, knowing which emotional layers are for acquaintances, friends, loved ones and their life partner.
Happy onions also know that taking responsibility for looking after their own inner emotional needs at layer 8 is the greatest gift they can give to themselves. Our inner layer needs our continuing care and attention if each of us is to thrive as an emotionally secure person.

So...are you an egg, a jelly or an onion?

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 13:17

*Thursday, December 27, 2007*

MERRY XMAS everyone!

i just got back so hope im not too late tho...aft all..there's 12 days of xmas!! *croons 12 days of xmas*

hope you all had a blessed and wonderful xmas and a good and wonderful 2008 ahead!!

updates on my trip shall come ltr....

mini update: i only bought 2 skirts, 3 tops, 3 bags, a dessert wine, 2 kilkenny cans, a dozen krispy kreme, lao po bing, some pineapple tarts, some honey walnuts, a doraemon, a red wine shower foam....think thats all lehhh!!see..i never buy much!=P

eyeing that Ralph Lauren Romance fragrance i happen to test when i went on duty free shopping when my plane touched down...its sooo nice!im IN LOVE WITH IT!but i nv buy!arghh! *huge regret* belated xmas prezzie anyone?! *bat eyelashes*

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 03:10

*Thursday, December 20, 2007*

mr magorium's wonder emporium is HIGHLYYY recommended!!go catch it!!

perhaps its cos i love the magical side of it..i love the toys..and yes...i want to be young agains...i want to be able to do what i want and do it happily too!!and its genuine happiness!

and heroes season 2 is uber engaging!darn!

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 22:53

*Wednesday, December 19, 2007*

i love it when ive the time to do what i want... stay up late, watch shows, read books,shop,hangout..spending my time MY way! wootz!
i luv luv luv this!its the start of a wonderful long break for me!weee!!
i feel so much younger all of a sudden!
i feel like..im back in uni...and the exams have ended thats why im enjoying my long break doing things i keep thinking of doing while i was having exams (cld still remember this LONGGG list of to-dos that i write up during every exam..but somehow nv got the chance to get to EVERYTHING in the list!)
omg...and when i shop im starting to learn to get more accessories etc so that i can dress up..weird that im only doing it now..perhaps im starting to...act young?!wait a min...i AM young!!HAHA!
holiday holiday holiday!wee!
looking fwd to my trip! *wide grinz*

-was it right from the start?or a mistake all along?i just want everyone to be happy..and perhaps..i just want to be able to be happy tooo-

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 21:05

*Tuesday, December 18, 2007*

when one goes crazy over the dots...here's what results!!

PRETTY!i hugz!am super into retro stuff!perhaps cos getting ready for DnD!weee!polka dots!retro!weeE!

wallet or bag?hmm!!

holidays...FINALLY!i love!looking fwd to the wonderful holiday ahead!YEA!=D

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 23:12

*Monday, December 17, 2007*

thanks for the well-wishes from one and all..thanks for all the gifts..thanks for the cake..thanks for the singing..thanks for the banana split...thanks for remembering!! =D
i love you alll!!
older..yes!wiser..no! saddedsss!!

Thomas makes an appearance!

...attempts to chase the blues away..

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 21:45

*Tuesday, December 11, 2007*

enchanted!musical perhaps?nice!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRYU4cqUAUs
extract from the song!

'thats how you know'

Giselle:
It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)
Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey?
Heyy! He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...

Man:
You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her

Giselle:
Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)
Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in Just for you?
Ohhh!
All:
He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know!

another song from the show's 'so close'...and of cos...not forgetting...

'true love kiss'
I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss
And a prince I'm hoping comes with this
That's what brings everaftering so happy
And that's the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch
So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love's kiss
*croones* (to irritate e movie buddies!=p)

so fairy tale-ish!!i wonder whether dear joyce watched it yets not...its disney!=D

-quotes: 'everybody has bad times...do we sacrifice all the good times for the bad ones?'
hmmmm..

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 23:14

*Monday, December 10, 2007*

lousy me had a lousy day and the lousy cf got on my nerves.
doesnt help that the lousy weather prevented the lousy me to go swim.
lousy me needs swimming to keep lousy me alive
lousy me wants to be in the water for as long as i want and immerse myself in the calm and peacefulness of the water.
lousy me is attempting to do something for someone within a short period but progress is slow..close to zilch...and lousy me feels lousy.
somehow lousy me also has a lousy wandering mind that keeps having lousy tots at lousy moments..perhaps because of the lousy self esteem ive got.
lousy mood never fails to make an appearance each time. roar.
lousy mood accompanies the lousy me to sleep.
gd nite.

i think i need a hug.
i miss the gals even tho i just met up with them ydae. (lp n joyce too...i missssssss youu!)
=(

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 23:35

loveee being with the crazy buncH!our ktv sessions are always oh so high!hee!i luv u all!(pics shall come tmr..damn shagged!)
and kopped from my dear lp's blog...this is dedicated to my crazy bunch too!
分享: 伍思凯
时间已做了选择
什么人叫做朋友
偶而碰头
心情却能一点就通
因为我们曾有过理想类似的生活
太多感受绝非三言两语能形容
可能有时我们顾虑太多
太多决定需要我们去选择
担心会犯错难免会受挫
幸好一路上有你陪我
与你分享的快乐
胜过独自拥有
至今我仍深深感动
好友如同一扇窗能让视野不同
与你分享的快乐
胜过独自拥有
至今我仍深深感动
好友如同一扇门让世界(变)开阔

i luv u all!*muacks*
cant believe the silly things im actually doing now...omg!hope i manage to finish it on time!omg omg omg!seems crazy..but im glad im attempting it...=P
canttttt waittttttttt for my holidayyyyy!!!!!!cant wait for xmasssss!!!~~
tu me manques!~

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 00:41

*Wednesday, December 05, 2007*

eeks!freaking lazy to blog!tired!shagged!broke!pls do not jio me out to shop thank you very much..im too broke...im staying at home to nerd storybooks during wkends and food allowances for e wk shall cut half!BROKE BROKE BROKE!

completed marathon!FINISHER TEE!YES! am soooo not gona lose this one!glad that we completed e race together too!wootz!tho we din hv e chance to take a pic together!saddeds!ohh wells!
but DISGUSTED with the way stan chart worked...horrible organisation..horrible 'volunteers' (well..they do get paid rite?)...lousy attitude...lousy everything..n once again..baggages were 'lost' agains..n their attitude towards this totally sucked..seriously..if they get ppl who's unwilling to be at the marathon on a hot sunday afternoon and have a shitty attitude..den seriously..dun bother!its the WORST baggage deposit situation ever!

on another note...at this pt in time (well...i cant say e same 1 yr ltr ma!)...i actually wana try to run for a longer distance nex yr!i admit i was darn lazy this yr...20+km only...so freaking lazy!shit!determined to attempt to run for at least...30km nex yr?okiess..this is what i wish i can do..but i dunno if i can do it!needs to start training!

my knees are so darn painful now im limping to work..and climbing up n downstairs kills...doesnt help that raffles place's flooded with stairs..OUCH!

seriously need to plan my financial resources(FR) well...my capital adequacy requirement(CAR) is freaking low! CAR=FR/TRR (TRR =total risk requirement) CAR low because FR low and TRR high...yikes!faints! *mads abt RBC*

y||ng picked a waterdrop @ 22:36